It's Been Forever

I meant to update this thing every day or so but a lot keeps happening. Like LIFE.

I am moving out of the house this weekend. Yea!!!! A big 2 bedroom apartment. A fireplace in the living room & a patio off my bedroom. I have hedged moving into an apartment because I value my privacy like it's gold but this is a nice place I am moving to. It will be easier to care for than a 2,000 square foot 4 bedroom house. I can't wait!

Currently, I have the most amazing guy in my life. He has been a blessing to me in a year of turmoil & craziness. He has really helped me to become grounded & because of him, I have grown up considerably in several ways. Unfortunately, he leaves town in November & I don't know what will become of the relationship. I know what I WANT to happen, but I have decided that I am just going to play it by ear & enjoy what I have for what it is right now, today.

I hate my job. (Just throwing that out there.) I used to love it, but now I hate it with a passion. There is so much drama & back biting & micro-managing. Everyone is against one another, no one works as a team. It's a bunch of snitching & gossip & lying. I am a manager, third in command of the business & the head of a department but yet there is no respect for that from the other two over me. Last week, I got into it with the general manager whom I was calmly talking to in a rational voice & he started mimicking me like he was a 3 year old. I got up & walked out for the rest of the day. But yet, I was the one in the wrong, I was told. This guy gets away with EVERYTHING & the boss refuses to see his undermining & lying. My other half told me that when I have to pop 3 Xanax just to get through the day, I need to find another job. So I am working on that. Until then I just imagine the sweet relief of a homicide as I clock in every day.

Also, our company is about to move into a new 24,000 square foot building. Guess who has been promoted - or is it DEmoted? - to clean it & set up offices? Yep - yours truly. Cleaning ladies here make $15-20.00 an hour. I DON'T. Plus I despise cleaning up anything that is a mess that someone besides myself or a family member makes. And I am wondering while I am scraping paint off baseboards when am I supposed to be getting my REGULAR job duties done? All of my stuff has been moved down to the new office but I have no computer yet. The boss won't let me use my personal laptop because it has DoD grade security software on it & he won't be able to monitor what I do with it. So I guess I'm supposed to conduct business email correspondence through my BlackBerry? Sure. Yeah. He isn't paying my phone bill, so I don't think so. Come on new job! Hurry up & let me find you!

So now I'm decompressing after work. Thank god for Diet Coke, chocolate & Marlboro Smooths. A friend is on the way over & I have a surprise birthday cake ready. Yum, I love me some birthday cake!